The girl , of passion  , of love and the adventurous soul that still continue to search for much more . What’s  the light I shall not sunder but the sight search for the bliss it once had ? Her ; a soul that has been put into so many sorrows and heartache what more can she take ? What more ? Tell me .. Tell me . I want to know . I cry a thousand tears to flood lands for years , still nothing .🛡 my shield is way up , the girl , “her” she has no more to spare.

That one happy moment was shortly lived , now I feel like I’m walking down a heavy path of sadness , a thousand stabs punctured the heart . Heart? What heart do I have , when I know nothing of the warmth that is now a mild feeling . Winter dawn in my heart and  filled it with the cold , harden by heartbreaks yet replenished with wisdom.

I have been left to feel neglect and abandonment from the ones I care most for . They don’t love me , they want to use me , and so I let them . I , in turn,  let them believe they are . Play the fool . While they toy and laugh ,  I set my motive devising plans for the future  . Everything is but a distant hum , A wish in the stars , Nothing lasts . why not make myself happy instead of walking around with a burden on my chest . Nothing is better than my self-worth . image.jpeg